I wish I have met you, not in the past. Not today. But in the future.
The fights in the present, makes me weak and vulnerable.
the burning and yearning has thinned, has simmered.
The day I have met you was the day I was happiest, yet, the day I also regret.
I wish I have loved you not in the past. Not today. But in the future.
When I’m all not confused and I can understand.
That the way our life goes is not what we have planned.
But what our destiny will tell and, it’s out of our hands.
I wish I would care not in the past. Not today. But in the future.
When I’m all getting used to loving you more than anything else in this world.
I don’t really know today if I love you since I stopped loving myself.
And people say to love a person you must really love yourself.
Oh dear, I wish to be with you not now.
I wish to have loved you in the future.
I am uncertain yet of how will this end up.
Or will this never end?
I would try to understand you.
The very best I can.
But if not.
I guess I will just leave.
By then when I disappear.
I wish to meet you.
In the future.